Yes, like many of us you're in limbo. And it can last a longtime. Even years.

I will say anger is better than being pathetic and whiny. As long as you control it. I've confronted my wife about various things on and since BD. When I did it as a weepy wimp, she was obviously not attracted and had even an air of disrespect. When I found her online dating profile and confronted her with control anger she at least respected me. I don't think it was a coincidence that we had sex not too long after that.

M(53), W(54),D(19)
M-23, T-25 Bomb Drop - Dec.23, 2017
Ring and Piecing since March 2018