Personally I have no truck with waywardness in any shape or form, hers or yours. It's no way to be a parent.
There are three beautiful daughters in this emotional mess.
Children always come FIRST. Above you or your selfish wayward spouses needs. And yes that is evaluating both of you.
You are here on the board to do that, more power to you. It's time to clean up your act because I see it, these precious mites need one great loving parent and that's you.
Usually there is some deep damage which goes back prior to the M. I think that might be your case, are you having IC?
Are there FOO issues you need to address.
I understand you hurt, feel guilty, possibly afraid. Almost certainly have red anger which seeks revenge?
I think you have no choice but to stand up to the plate, these are wonderful bundles in your life and they have to have the best dad they can have.
This is a time of great change for you, are you dad enough for it?
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I do my best. Feeling really lost atm.
Truly your route through this is for your Ds. For your children, if you put them first above all then you are doing the right thing.
So tell me your plan on this.
What is your best?
V
Freedom is just another word for nothing left to loose. V 64, WAW