I don't know how to to feel. I'm sad. But I'm mostly numb. But I keep getting sadder. GF came over in the middle of the night, missed work, to be here for me, and for D once she woke up.
Your GF sounds like a very kind and understanding woman. I know some women who would say "so what you were divorced" but someone who understands what you're going through rather than resenting it is a treasure.
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I talked to her C. I talked to school (who made sure school C knows). I talked to her teacher. Grandparents, aunts and uncles and cousins, and friends' parents, and girl scout troop leader. She's going to get the support she needs from everyone. Everyone loves her.
That says a lot about you as a person East. That in the middle of your own grief, you immediately swing into action to make sure your D is getting the help she needs without a second thought. You are conducting yourself with the utmost dignity despite the horror of this.
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My poor liittle girl lost her mother!! AGAIN!! FOR GOOD THIS TIME! WHY?????? WHY THE HELL DID SHE HAVE TO GO THROUGH THIS DIVORCE TOO??? And the end of this is that her mom is gone???
It really isn't fair, there's just no way to paint it in a better light. But she still has you, and that is what is important.
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I read that divorce (and infidelity) are like having your spouse die, and having someone else walk around in their body. What do you do when that person dies, too?
You take however long it takes and you grieve. The shortest path is through the pain, not around it. You lean on others when you can't stand up yourself. You never get over it but you come to accept it.
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This place has been my journal but I don't know how to write here anymore.
I think you're doing a fantastic job of sharing your feelings. I can only hope that we help you a little in getting through this terrible time.
