So, not sure what you would call this right now. Been a crazy two-plus weeks. My past two or three threads can give you the full rundown if you are new to my sitch.
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She gave up her burner phone and promised to cut contact with OM back in July. I confronted OM a couple days later to make sure he "got the message". Unbeknownst to me, OM kept calling her at work. She never told me. I found out about that roughly two weeks or so ago. Then she had a brief meet up with him at the gym, based on her finding out from one of the phone calls that she had gotten from him. I saw the meetup, I told her we were done and that I wanted her out. She completely broke down, begged me to stay, said she'd do anything etc etc. I left the house for a week. Didn't say a word to her or contact her except for a few seconds the second day when I went back to retrieve some clothes. MC brokered a meet up for us to discuss if and when I [i]might come back. The meet up went surprisingly well, W being very submissive and apologetic and such, and W and I connected very well. This continued and accelerated Sunday (Easter) when we fell into bed with each other. That was nice (Okay, way better than nice), but it derailed/sidetracked the process and discussion we were supposed to have about boundaries and requirements for me to return home. Got the train back on the tracks this past Wednesday with a session with our MC (Jessica), and W accepted all of my boundaries and preconditions. We are now working on some of the exercises that MC gave us to do. We each have IC sessions scheduled next week, as well as one MC session.
W been a little down, as have I, last 24 hours. A little bit of hangover, I think, from the emotional roller coaster, plus we got a very difficult call from my S19 in college last night. He'd already dropped down to 10 credit hours and now is failing one of his three remaining classes. He cant focus or get organized... not even enough to get his tail to a doctor to get some ritaline or enough to get himself to see his advisor and/or his dean to help get him stabilized on some sort of study plan or something. He's really crashing and burning
H53/W51, R-ing 4/'18
"Do not arouse or awaken love until it so desires"-Sg.of Sg 2:7
"So oftentimes it happens,that we live our lives in chains, & we never even know we have the key"-Eagles III 1:3