Can I really do this?

[Olya]

I'd recommend taking some sleeping aids. Nothing major - I'm talking something like NyQuil PM. You have to stop thinking about this and obsessing. Maybe do a major house cleaning Friday night and see if that helps you sleep in Saturday morning.

Part of letting go is not letting these things hurt you. I barely slept last week, so, I get where you're coming from. But you have to try. Otherwise, in spite of your best intentions, you will not be able to think or act rationally.