Help evaluating LRT progress

[Olya]

I feel like I've been living with a crazy person, and I really don't want the crazy to rub off.

Remember that it's only crazy if you try to apply YOUR logic to it. To him, Im sure it all makes complete sense.

Thats why the rule around here is to not believe anything they say. Not because theyre lying to you, but because theres so much fluidity and contradiction and it will lead you on wild goose chases to try to understand.

Yeah, I've been getting a sense of that more and more.

Problem is, I just don't buy it - not completely.

I understand that a crazy person may think that his behavior is sane and that it makes sense. That does not make it normal. It is still objectively crazy behavior. When contradicting things make sense depending on the time of day, when you cannot remember where you were last Christmas, when you disassociate yourself from your actions to a point where a whole year is conveniently gone from your memory - that is not normal.

I pretty much gave up trying to understand. I am doing my best to forgive and empathize. I am even willing to wait until he is ready to get help and support him when he does. However, I have very little respect left for him right now and none for his "logic." It is not another shade of normal and if I start validating it by telling myself that it is, I'll go crazy alongside him.

Right now, I am living with a crazy person and that crazy is what I'm getting some distance from. He will be leaving for 10 months on the 27th of May. At this point, it cannot come soon enough. At the very least, for the times when I am home, I will be able to sleep without being waken up in the middle of the night by a lunatic yelling "get off me" and "don't touch me." Is he laying awake half the night waiting for my elbow or forearm to touch him so that he can then throw a fit!?

I love that man, but not the behavior that is beneath him.

Sorry if I came off snippy, but unlike 44tries, this is my second time through the same minefield, and there was a lot of emotional and verbal abuse the first time around. I think I might be more done than I thought I was.