What to Do? 7

[chris19]

Hey everybody. It is crazy to think how long I have been on this board. You all are so wonderful for taking time to help others.

I am pretty much in the same place I was a couple weeks ago. We hang out occasionally, but nothing transpires from it. She has not proven to me she wants to leave the OM and pursue a future with me. She is still "stuck" not knowing what shes wants, but she knows she doesn't want to close the book on us yet. Script (am I right?). She keeps saying she wants the best for me, and she knows if we split up she will never find someone as good as me, and that I deserve better than she can give me. Maybe not "keeps saying", but has mentioned this in the past conversations we have had this year.

I was doing so good with GAL before I reconnected with her on February to split up the wedding gifts. Ever since that day, I have kind just been sad and dopey. I try not to show it around her at all, but I can't help but believe she sees it a bit. One thing I defiantly has changed is my Mr. Nice Guy attitude with her. I am completely direct with her now, even if I know she won't like my responses.

I am just still stuck in this limbo, and I told myself once my bday hits this month I would not be able to live like this anymore. I want companionship, someone to share this quick life we have on Earth, someone to go on adventures with, and someone to be happy with - without changing who I am. So...time's up W.