Help evaluating LRT progress

[Olya]

Ouch, this is extremely hurtful. It is definitely wrong. And the military takes adultery a lot less lightly than the rest of the world these days, so he should be careful (not that this is your concern atm).

I promise you, he intended it this way.

I have no idea how much of it I should believe. He basically told me the same thing a year ago when he was throwing the same fit. Later, he (1) forgot he ever said it and (2) was appalled that I thought he'd do it.

I feel like I've been living with a crazy person, and I really don't want the crazy to rub off.

Last year, I begged and pleaded. I am not doing that again.

I am also very aware of what I can do to him if he has an affair and I may just have the connections that could help me do it. I would be lying if I said that it isn't tempting or that I haven't thought about blowing up his life on my way out. Right now, I am against taking this kind of action. I'd like to think that I am capable of being a better person than that. Again, it's that whole "looking at yourself in the mirror" thing.