Down days are going to happen. Its okay to be sad and frustrated. Its okay to get angry that you cannot lean your on H... how dare he take that away!!!!
But, you know that calling and begging him will only instill guilt at best and that is no way to anchor recon.
Now, tell yourself... he came home... he was curious... he is questioning his choices at the moment. Trust me. Not calling him and leaving him in the dark to wonder about you WILL eat at him. He will wonder. They all do.
So what can you do right now for you? Can you go take a quick walk? Can you run down to the coffee store? Can you just go for a drive? Go back and read Sandi's rules? At the very least stand up and do some calming breathing exercises. This moment will pass and when it does you will be grateful you didn't contact H.
