Former WH, now LBS Please Help, close to Give Up

[betheoa]

I was struggling to get out of bed and face my day. I kept saying, "Sandi, just put one foot in front of the other one, and you will move". Some days are difficult, but if we focus on this day......do what we need to do on this day.....and try not to worry so much about tomorrow.......we will keep moving forward.

Yes Sandi, i am going to deal with My/Her craziness day by day,but plan my logic moves long term.

No, You did very well. smile. I think she was trying to get more information from you, and she was finding a reason to call several times.

All the years, she has known every, moment where i am, who i am ...in the past she call 10 -20 times par day.

After OM1, i start changing this dynamic, to day i do not share any information about my day (only kids related) , if she ask i answer very short.

As you say, it is her game.

Yes i know how she behave, there is logic in her un logic behavior, and this is her selfish interest....Thanks to You Sandi, i am more confident to not fall back, to crumbs she trow on me (like being nice, interested or caring).

To day she is scared, about what i will do in future-so she is nice and polite, as well as yesterday she got i high from 2-3 hours meeting with OM.

Do you have plans for after work today?

I had plane to stay at the motel and write to forum and organised some thing on the PC - but as i wrote above, I am going to take my kids from her parents and go home with them. You can see ...her plan. She send them to the parents to have opportunity to meet OM, so OM will not be in this week as well i cut her of being at home if the kids not there, so she take them back. Out of my filings and anger, this make me smile of so much effort for 2-3 hours of feel good, but i remember this feeling from my WH past, the difference is that i cover what i have done, so no one to found out.

Do you have a good book to read, or a good movie to watch?

I will spend some time with my kids educate them about PC things, then will work on PC also will make some drawing about the flat i am going to prepare in 3 months

Treat yourself to something nice. Enjoy your personal space and time away from the stress at home.

Thanks very much Sandi.

Today i am going to handle this evening with honor and grease (be with the kids and WW around me). Yes my WW have OM in her Head and heart, but i am not allowing this to cut my confidence. Tomorrow will handle after i woke up.

Good evening Sandi and all others there, if i have opportunity will write later.
Sandi how you are doing? Every day i wait something from you as comment, answer or/and advice ..... but you are human ....so how are you today?