Fighting my way out of the dark - Part 9

[Holding]

Hey Everybody! Thought I'd give a status update since my last post about 3 weeks ago.

I just found out my D decree has been signed. Talk about an anti-climax! I didn't feel much of anything when I found out, except to say to my self "finally". The D was granted on Feb 15, so this was just a formality.

I recently read Tread's update on his own sitch, and I feel much the same way. I decided I was done living in the past. I've left the darkness of my cave, and I've entered a world full of colors.

I've been meeting people, socializing, and I've gone on a few dates. I'm not getting into anything serious at the moment, but I'm enjoying the prospect of dating and seeing where it goes. I'm on guard about using dating as a means of validation. Still, it's good to feel alive again.

For those of you out there suffering, there is life after D. I know how hard it can be to see that when you're in the thick of it. I couldn't.

DB'ing definitely helped my healing process. It put me on the path to detachment. If you suffer from NGS issues like me, find a NGS support group!

Thanks to everyone here for their support, criticism, 2x4s, and just taking the time to comment. I can't imagine what my journey would have been like had I not found this place.

It's been almost a year since BD for me. If you'd come to me a year ago and told me everything I'd go through, I wouldn't have believed you. Part of me still can't believe it. It's a fire that burned away part of me, and created something new. I know it sounds cheesy, but it's like a phoenix. Before now, I'd never thought about how painful it must be for the phoenix.

DB'ing may not save your M, but it can save YOU.