My Journey with WAS (Part 8)

[Vanilla]

I wanted to add one small post about the ultimate fate of a wayward.

Once again from the waywards perspective.

You have lied and cheat and manipulated. You have misused your body and mind, possibly with substances or alcohol or smoking or compulsions.

You are truly empty and have poor cognitive functions, your wits, health and looks are declining. You may have a damaged liver, kidneys, lungs and likely poor health with serious amyloid deposits.

Cognitive function starts to decline, because you are emotionally dysregulated and can't self sooth then starting to be unpleasant to be around.

Keeping your mask on takes lots of energy, you may persuade some folks although because you always move on in your life, your friendships aren't deep or meaningful. If you have a partner then communication is likely to be poor.

As you are impulsive then you spend money to buy company and items you think you need to maintain your veneer. It's hard work as you get older and you get weak. You never really had any true interests of your own, being a chameleon you adopted those of each partner. Your R are shallow like your affect. Your children likely don't love or like you, they see how you treated the other parent, how you had affairs, how you abandoned and they feel that too.

Your behaviour leaves you without the peace of spirituality and you age poorly, you see this as weakness. You can't maintain your health.

Statistically because of your choices you are likely to get dementia and degenerative diseases which you do not suffer well. You don't know how. Even if you have really been vain and looked after your physical health, mentally the stress of pretending to be some one you aren't takes its toll. You can't keep the lies together.

You are most likely to commit suicide, end up in a hostel (if male) and on benefits, having not saved for your pension.

Your LBS being very fond of DB, being authentic but damaged temporarily by you, has grown, takes extreme care of themselves. Is loved by their children with family and friends. They are active, positive, optimistic and recovered.

The LBS knows a healthy R from an unhealthy one, has an equal loving partner in life. They grow and have a good old age, dying with their higher spirit connected and in peace with themselves. Of course their fins were damaged but they recovered through determination and hard work. They have sufficient and they have love of self, with their higher spirit and those around them. Living an enriched life.

So Karma was there all along.

V