I understand that I have not appeared to be strong lately in my communication with W. I guess I was too worried that I give more of the same if I kept my feelings inside. I just need to wake up and acknowledge that my situation is different now - W do not want R with me. I need to stop punishing myself for the past and take responsibility of creating happiness that comes from within.
Iīm also totally aware that W could have been keeping the contact with OM, even intentionally meet him at fair. But still I donīt think they went or spent time together there, since my kids were there as well.
I donīt dear to be loud of my GAL or detaching plans that how good they look, since honestly - itīs not going so well as I guess everybody who have red my thread knows. Feels that I have lost myself during this process. But I will take small steps to right direction and hopefully in time I got to be that grounded man I want to be. The man who is happy with or without people around him.
