Thanks for checking in, Sandi2. Things have settled down a bit. Have not been back to WAW in two weeks, but that is due to Spring Break with eldest kids. Invited WAW and youngest kids but was declined.
We basically have a separation agreement in place after 8 months of separation already. We stop cohabitation in September, which still puzzles me. Why wait? I have about a week per month in her house with the kids while she is there; else I am in other state or on business trips. Working with exW to change custody agreement to about the same number of days, just split up to two long weekends per month. While WAW still says she wants D, she now refers it to D scenario when I suggested I might get an apartment long term, as staying at her relatives when I am not nesting, is not good long term.
I have good and bad days. Mostly good, hopeful for R but accepting reality for what it is. I’m also not very patient, so at times I just want to give up. But I can’t. Sometimes I text WaW, other times use LRT, just trying to find the right mix.