Infidelity/WAH, my story pt 12, D on hold

[PsySara]

I am not expecting perfection but he has done this the entirety of our marriage. He begged for each child and then left me to do 90% of the childcare. Now that he wrecked our marriage and still acts like an @ss I can't really see any reason to give him excuses for his shoddy behavior. Yesterday I came home and the kids had only eaten breakfast (it was 5 pm) and they were melting down because he couldn't be bothered to actually give them a snack. This angers me because it is more of the same, his immature and inconsiderate behavior. Meanwhile he is cold and grunts answers at me, his contempt is evident in that he can't even show me the respect of eye contact and speaking in normal tones.

He is passive in the divorce too, it's been defaulted because he did not respond when he was served. His mail is piled up on the counter and includes the court date for mid-April and he hasn't opened it or read it. He leaves messes around the house and then criticizes how I clean (meanwhile he cleans nothing) and then critiques how I run the house. I am literally counting the hours until the divorce is final and I can show him the front door.

I find myself very angry that I chose him for a husband and to be the father of my children. He is lazy, mean and immature. The cheating really was the straw that broke the camel's back. Now he is flirting with females at his work and coming home and giving me shark eyes. I should have filed for divorce the minute I found out he was cheating.