I need some guidance

[Ste7e]

Thanks for the replies so far.
Well after my losing my way yesterday and feeling really stupid about having done so and having to start over again today I can see how every move I made will not get me any sort of result I am looking for and not make that mistake again. I just wish I would have listened to what I had read and not acted.
So back again at day one I feel like I did really good today and was totally detached (although I only had to deal with one quick text message echange about the sick pet) and focused on myself and the changes I need to make.
Im a musician and booked a concert later in the month which will be the first time Ive played out in 3 and half years. Also booked a vacation for myself which is a big deal as I have a severe fear of flying which was a serious problem in the relationship. But I guess most importantly I did these things for my own self worth as these are problems I was unhappy in myself about not actualizing...its a bit of a win win that these are things I know W was disappointed in me about. I still love her but learning how to love myself...started to recognize some codependent behaviors I was in denial about or just couldn’t see from my previous vantage. Any tips on nuturing patience?