I need some guidance

[Ste7e]

Ok so I blew it on day one of being here...I dont even know how the conversation got started but we had a long one about the divorce...I guess I am glad it happened because it at least allows me to acept this and start making changes for mysef vs doing them for her. “Done” is the right word...She is done completely I dont really know how I come back from this. What she said is that this isnt about me but a pattern for her. She has been a serial dater her life had 3 long term 5 year relationships before we met...and she ended them the exact same way. She said that this is something she just does and is not interested in another relationship with anyone that her friends and colleagues probide her with enough live to sustain herself. More importantly that she has a “process” she is working through to fix herself from doing this again. OK that is good that she is trying to fix herself but she is doing by totally being done with me. I dont really see her changing her mind is 2 months when she wants to file. 2 months to give me time to process my feelings. I guess I pushed her on the subject because I was really hurting...and needed to be set free myself. I cant sit around and pine for her and wait for her...which I was doing during the month seperation. Ok so here we go Rope Drop and work on me. But man acceptance of this is really hard, I still love her and hope that we both can fix ourselves and get back together. But I dont see that happening in 2 months. Am I delusional to think that this marriage can be saved? Am I a lighthouse in this scenario is it her or me who is seeing things clearly?