That REALLY escalated fast. (Hoosjim's 14th)

[hoosjim]

After the suicide episode (the three days) and my H let me back in the house, soon after that we had the most amazing sex over the next couple of days... Our pastor warned us that it was a honeymoon phase. He was right. Nothing had really changed... My heart had still not been transformed, and neither has your wife's..

Funny you say that. The past couple of days, even though i continue to be borderline repulsed by her behavior, and completely untrusting of her, i have had the most inexplicable sexual attraction to her. Like, wild. Like fantasizing about going home and busting down the door of the house, and... ya know. She wrote me a looooong letter, that i finally read (more on that later today, no time now, counselor suggested it--- said we will have to at least coexist FTTB) and it didn't help that dynamic (IOW it didn't cool me down any just the opposite.) And i never had this happen the whole time of the A or, though yes i was attracted to her, even when we were supposedly "piecing" and dating and the like.

Dont worry Artista. I am not going to let her off the hook or let her back in too soon. She has work to do. She knows it, i know it, counselor knows it.

I'll just be spending some time in the cold shower.