No more denial, time to get to work

[MRay]

Update for tonight. W came home from work as the kids and I were eating dinner. She got herself some food and joined us, and we had a good conversation. After dinner she cleaned the dishes and went outside with the kids while I stayed in. They came in, the kids were bathed and put to bed. We talked about plans for Easter while brushing our teeth. I'm taking the kids to my parents and she's going to hers. I asked if she wanted me to bring the kids by her parents later in the day and she didn't know. She seemed bothered by something, and didn't want to think about it right then. It's hard to believe she doesn't want her family to see the kids on Easter, but I'm not really sure about anything she does these days. Now we're in our separate rooms relaxing.

Tomorrow I plan to take the kids to my best friends house to meet his new baby. We'll see how I sleep tonight. I haven't had more than 5 hours in 3 months (probably averaging 4), but I'm starting to get better.