From Sandy: I don't know exactly the minute I wanted to start working on my MR. Those desires returned slowly. I just know it came after I worked on my heart. And, it came once I felt remorse and sincerely apologized to my H. I had a lot of stinking thinking to rid.
this is key... as i said a couple of times yesterday, for me, this didn't happen until i finally gave up trying to do the things that i thought would bring my H back... when i sent him that EMAIL... when i freaked out about everyone finding out my pretty little life was a big mess that i caused... that was my first step to finally begin working on the inside... and it was not like i was consciously making those decisions... it's just what followed... when i let go of trying to get back into my M, i was a step closer to getting my broken self "fixed." and that was a long process...
