So you got your first real date out of the way! It wasn't perfect, but there certainly is a relief when you realize you can be sexually attracted to someone else.
As to the race topic..... Cultures generally stick to their cultures because they have a certain set of beliefs or traditions they are raised with. Much like it is important of certain faiths to marry the same faith. I don't think it is racist.
I have a Filipino friend who has been in this country most of her life, but she was raised with traditional cultural practices of Filipinos. She said she could not have imagined not marrying a Filipino. They have a particular understanding of their family values, like the same food, practice religion similarly, ect. And she loves having grown up that way.
I have always been a white girl who grew up in a predominantly white town who also has no religion. (I was not raised with any formal religion, nor was I baptized). I am physically attracted to white guys. Why? I don't know. I could probably emotionally grow attached to those who share the same values as me, whatever color or religion they are. But sometimes, people of other cultures or religions live their lives differently and that's not what is comfortable for you.
