Finding Solutions, Not Distractions..

[Coconut]

Hmm, interesting that this took a turn into interracial dating, because I didn't mention it but she is a black woman, and I am white... I've been attracted to two black woman in the past that I would of gladly dated, but they were both one sided, my side

Anyway, date was fine, I was at ease and conversation was, um, ok. At times I felt like I was playing 20 questions, cause she was throwing them out there, from "what type of house cleaner are you" (as in clean only before guests or keep it up), to favorite movies to favorite places I've traveled. I thought it was a bit much, kinda minimizes actual conversation, but I'm just getting my feet wet again so I'll go along and see what works. In the end, I found her very sexually attractive, but not much else. I don't plan on reaching out to her for a second, but if circumstances happen to us spending a night together in the future, I'd be good with it now.

As for the interracial aspect, some of the different perspectives I found kinda uncomfortable. I can see how a black person would see things diffently, but at one point she talked about leaving two churches, one because they displayed a "white" Jesus and the other because the tithe envelopes only pictured caucasian people.

I am not racist, or at least I don't think less of anyone other than my race, but I realized that I don't see the world the same. Jesus was a person, he was skin, bones and blood, and the depictions of him are Caucasian, I never questioned that, I never wondered why he wasn't black, yellow, or any thing else, and I'm not sure that I want to start questioning why Santa is also white, why Easter is symbolized as a bunny and not a cat, or why anything else just is.

Frankley, I don't know that I have it in me to start looking at everything differently, I'll welcome anyone and everyone into my circle and life, but I don't think I'm at a point that I want to change the way I see the world. Maybe that makes me racist, I don't know.