lol...she might indeed be planning to kill me in my sleep!
I agree with rewarding good behavior. I feel like I did that at the time, but in the days following I am questioning everything in my head. I'm going to try and not show my guard is up, but I think she is like a bloodhound with that kind of thing. Not sure why she can be oblivious to so much but pick up on stuff like that.
I don't think for a minute that she is fully baked...and I suspect that when she gets back that she will be in a different frame of mind. I feel like I can feel that happening already, but I could just be over analyzing. Well, I am definitely over analyzing, but that can't be helped sometimes. I almost feel like its a good thing that she went out of town right after. Give us both some time to process.
I am going to try and be prepared for whatever happens and enjoy myself in the interim. Just threw me off guard when 2 days later I wasn't ecstatic over her seemingly heartfelt apology and expressing a desire to make things work. I guess thats growth on my part. Had she said the same thing 3 months ago I think I would have jumped right on board...
