Thanks Gordie. I think you are right about all of that.
Its hard to say regarding her actions. She went out of town right after so there haven't been many actions to see. She isn't calling and texting me lovey stuff while out of town, but I don't really expect that. I mean if she is starting to surface a little out of the fog (even if only a little), then I imagine she is going to be depressed as the realization of everything begins to hit her. I imagine that will cause her to backstep a little. All that to say that I probably DO need to take it slow and have low expectations. You are right, if she can change her mind in a day then it can go the other way too. I guess the good of it is that SHE is still in there somewhere, even if not coming out for good yet.
I think I need to continue focusing on myself while still being accepting of her willingness to change (leave the light on kind of thing).
I also think you are right about beginning to feel new things and not to stuff them. I think I am starting to feel a little of that already.
The trip she is on is for work, but she has never been to DC before. She decided to extend her trip through the weekend so she could check out the city. She planned this trip a month or 2 ago. It wasn't until this past weekend (right before she left) that I realized that meant that she wouldn't be here on Easter. The way her planning has gone the last year, I'm pretty sure she didn't realize it when planning it either. Her and I didn't talk about that aspect, but now it comes down to the fact that she won't be here on Easter because she wanted to have a mini vacation in a new city by herself. I wonder how she'll feel about that if she is starting to surface a little. Guess it doesn't really matter at this point.
Well, back to the kids for now...thank you, friend. Your advice always hots home.
