I think there's been a pattern of behavior and a resentful dynamic in your m that got you here. No forgiveness asked for or given.
Also, the DB principle about doing what works, is being lost here.
In The above post I asked about your expectations of your w, what you thought would happen - given your refusal to have sex without conditions precedent.
Can you answer those questions?
M: 57 H: 60 M: 35 yrs S30,D28,D19 H off to Alaska 2006 Recon 7/07- 8/08 *2016* X = "ALASKA 2.0" GROUND HOG DAY I File D 10/16 OW DIV 2/26/2018 X marries OW 5/2016