I'm sorry you're having a hard time at the moment WillDo. Sometimes it is all we can do to keep breathing in and out and take things a day, hour, minute at a time. That is all you need to do just now - nothing more. You don't need to fix any relations that you feel are in turmoil - only exist and do the basics - sleep, eat, work and care for children if you have them.
When the worry thoughts start, do you have some strategies to manage them? Many, many people find physical exercise calming. I sometimes run a hot bath. Or post her. Or journal. Or listen to inspirational podcasts, or meditate, some yoga. I found working with my hands helpful too.
You need do nothing more than find ways to manage your anxieties and soothe your weary mind. Soon your therapist will be back and you can explore how you have been feeling together, and how you can best move forward.
I do hope you'll be feeling much better soon. Know that you are not broken, merely doing your best during challenging times.
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We receive & we lose, and must try to achieve gratitude & embrace with whole hearts whatever of life that remains after the losses - Dubus
