I think we all (especially me) can recall times when we thought things were "going in a positive direction" just to be wrong.
There is so much happening that we don't know and perhaps never will know. I used to go for long walks earlier in my journey while still being in in-house separation and used to stop from time to time to jump up and down and squash the "hope gremlins" (probably looked silly). I still believed in them much to my dissapointment.
Each of our stories are different but also very very similar.
On BD H52, W50 T27, M26 S21, D23 BD-9-Mar-16 D-15-Jan-18 Final-19-Apr-18 I am a storyteller. The story may do you no good. But a story is never for the listener. It is always for the one who tells