How long, from that point, the desperation and desperate texts, the suicide threat, etc... until you hit rock bottom and were ready to start rebuilding.
Here is my .02 Rock bottom can come after the affair ends. Some affairs end in 2 years.
Some NEVER end.
Best to live your life "as if" she is never coming back and then if she does you can decide what to do then. Right now you have your answer.
