8 months of what i thought was "piecing" down the drain. Reset the post-affair clock to "zero". WW sounding desperate, constant tears, begging, pleading... but still trying to minimize the significance of what she did. Evidence points to the A resuming sometime in... ah, screw it, I'm not sure i know anything about what went on or when in this thing anymore. Everything being called into question. Possibilities range from the unlikely (She cut contact cold turkey, OM called her a couple of times last week and then there was a completely chance meet up at the gym) to the unlikely (She never cut contact at all, never intended to cut contact, but went completely underground and engaged in several near-Machiavellian misdirections to keep from being discovered, keeping fully engaged with the affair and the OM for the entire duration from late April 2017) to a whole range of more likely timelines under the bell curve in between the two. What is most important is that she broke trust (again), lied to me (again), and resumed contact with OM after being told, in July, that that would be the end of this.
I walked out on Saturday and with the exception of a few sentences (mainly: "I want you out", "I dont' want to talk about it", "Please leave me alone" I have barely spoken with her since. I gave her until friday to get out. MC (who is more like a divorce mediator at this point, TBH) talks to us both tomorrow, after which i will start pushing the issue on her leaving the marital bedroom and marital home. If she digs in her heels, i may have to take more drastic action like listing the house for sale (which would be a timely move anyway with S2 off to college in August) or filing for divorce (Which is something, honestly, i would rather leave the onus on her for.)
FWIW this all really [censored]. We had had a really good couple of weeks, and i was finally letting my guard down and had "bought in" to the idea that we had turned the corner. Then, Sha-BOOM! Bomb drop #2
H53/W51, R-ing 4/'18
"Do not arouse or awaken love until it so desires"-Sg.of Sg 2:7
"So oftentimes it happens,that we live our lives in chains, & we never even know we have the key"-Eagles III 1:3
