Gaslighting or selfish, naive and blind...

[Pax_luv]

Hi ciluzen,
There's something so dignified about your recent interaction with your ex h. The fact that were cognizant of your actions and behaviors and how they may have affected your xh just demonstrates how far you've come on your journey (and your scholastic learnings). It takes a strong, independent (detached) person to be able to look someone in the eye and own up to the subtle intricacies that may have affected your xh deep down.... When in fact, it was the two of you simply being human. Nothing you did was intentional. You didn't hurt your ex on purpose. We can barely see ourselves clearly, let alone those around us... It's no wonder that we constantly "bump into" each other with out even knowing it.

It was very brave of you to make those internal assessments and then apologize for them. Very brave indeed.

Lastly, the eft work sounds interesting. I've done some similar stuff (more of an emphasis on neuro linguistic programming) and while it is sooooooo intense, there's something To be said about having to relive those painful memories. It's carhartic, but then having the opportunity to do something with it (by changing modalities or looking at it differently) can be life changing. kudos to you for all the work you are doing and all you are experiencing. I have profound respect for you.