IMHO, this is the "do or die" time. She really needs to feel the sting of her actions. She didn't have many consequences or experience any loss the last time. This time, she has to believe she has scr@wed up, and you are done. Stop being afraid you are going to lose her.
Leave her alone for a couple of days......at least. I know you don't want to burn your bridges, but she has to seriously believe she has burned hers! If you go home tonight, she will see it as you wilting, and she'll try to talk her way out of this mess again. She'll promise you the moon.
Seriously, don't go home tonight. Don't answer her calls/texts......unless she indicates an emergency with S18 (and she just might claim she can't handle him). Let her deal with him, and you go get a room and just stay away so that you can think (don't tell her you have to think......don't tell her a word).
I think she'll try hard to get you to go home and talk, and if you won't talk or text with her........she may put S18 up to contacting you, so beware. I hope she will call the IC for an emergency phone session for herself, instead of wanting the MC to calm you down and talk to you. See what I'm saying?
Nothing says you can't call the IC from your hotel room, and see what she recommends. It won't hurt just to touch base with her, and it might help you emotionally.
I hope Artista will give advice, since she made some false starts with her H. I feel she may be more helpful than me. But I am here, and will hang around all weekend.......if you need to talk. We will be anxious to hear any updates as soon as you can post.
It is not about what you feel should work in your M. It is about doing the work that gets the right results. Do what works!
