Gordie #18: still not divorced

[Gordie]

So struggling a bit with feelings that w is taking advantage of me. She’s taking advantage of my kindness and loyalty and always being there and doing whatever she wants with no consequences and...I don’t know...I guess this is where the forgivnesss comes in and forgiving people who don’t ask for forgiveness. Keep digging. Forgiveness frees me, right? I can choose to be resentful and angry or I can choose to let go and be free, right? I think it’s expectations creeping above zero and wanting her to do or say something to get closer to R, but I can only control me. I’ve been on a good run lately and my situation hasn’t changed, so not sure why these feelings are coming up now.