thank you all so much for the support. Feeling the love.

So we arrive at the hospital. D15 so nervous. Appointment was at 10am.

Waited and waited. Around 11:30 they call her name. Now the last scan was in and out 15 minutes. So I stay in the waiting area for her. She puts on her gown (who doesn't love those).

So I wait some more and more. 35 mins pass. I begin to worry so I go down the hall and see 3 medical people talking. I ask where my daughter is. They tell me it won't be a minute. Well 30 mins later she comes out. She said it was horrible.

Blood tests, eye exam, ear exam and the MRI. I asked the nurse why and they said the doctor looking at her file said it was necessary. I also asked if they saw something and she said she can't tell me. The Dr will see me in April with the results. So we were off.

Told D15 she could of called for me if I was needed for support. She said No, shes trying to be brave.

I messaged XW the little details I had.

Was a very long morning at the hospital. They did a series of tests and we don't get the results back until April. It will be good to put it behind us this health scare.

I dropped off the movies at my work and they will send them out to you today.

I’ll keep you posted when I get more news


She replied a short thanks then followed by a series of questions.
Do the girls horseback ride still? Is D15 and D17 doing good in school? How are your parents? Do the girls have boyfriends?
It is hard for me still because I don't see them or talk to them. My mind races and its like I'm going crazy!!!

I have no choice to change my thoughts and keep occupied and busy. I have to take care of myself or die. Those are my only 2 options!!!

well I answered the Daughter questions since she asked. As for her last comment, I replied:
Well actually there are many options but they consist of work and facing things head on. You can continue to run and hide or face it. All I know is avoiding things doesn't make them go away it makes them spin round and round and they will always come back hard.

A fiend of mine just had a baby. i will spend a lot of time with her. god I love holding newborns , it's like therapy.

no answer to that one. Holding a baby would make me miss my girls more if I didn't see them. How could that be therapy.


I saw your video on your Memphis trip. Looks like you guys had fun. I'm really happy for you. I know you are doing a great job as a single dad.

She knows I have a youtube page and I post my videos, drones, 360 videos and just trips I do with the girls and some with my GF.
She doesn't mention my GF and her son who were clearly in the video. Weird but no bother.

Yes, it was amazing. This trip was planned 4 years agoand I could postpone it any longer. An Elvis was needed. And trips I always plan the max out of a location to do and get the most we can. And making videos, my passion.

I am really Glad you reach out, Irish. maybe one day we can talk like mother and fathers do. I would really look forward to that. If you need anything let me know.

No problem. I will update you on the girls when needed. Is there anything I need? No, I am managing fine but if something comes up i will let you know.

Have a great day and thanks again. Also i hate emails as communication. We should talk instead...

If you need to talk you knwo where to reach me. I am a good listener and my STFU skills have been perfected.

STFU skills lolololll you know, Sometimes it's good to hear, sorry my expression; the god d@mn truth.

take care


busy chat day. No need to open discussion right now as I have nothing to update her until April.

All this felt like was the same as the past few head popping out of her hole tricks. Then running back in. We will see if there is any difference. All I know is I am at peace with what I shared.


D15 however said she dreamt about XW. That she was at the hospital waiting . She said that is why she was so nervous. I told her I thought she was nervous because of the tests. D15 said no not at all. I just don't want to see my mom and her BF there. I asked: What if it was just your mom here?

D15 stopped me in the hall and said. Dad, if she cared she would be in my life, I don't expect anything from her.
Also I would know you arranged it because you want to best for me. If you could fix my mom you would of and from what the therapy told me. Nothing can break that spell.
We will see in time what she does.

I left it at that. But I felt she wouldn't turn her mom away if she was alone and did the work.


thanks again so many prayers for D15. They were felt