Things have been really calm at home. We have chatted (no R talk), talked about the kids etc.... On Friday we even went out for lunch together - was relaxed, just chatting. I had an appointment to go to so it was a natural end to the lunch. He went out with friends that evening coming home the next day (but had been drinking and it was in the city 30 minutes away), so that was OK. He came back and told me all about his night out, who he was with etc... (normally he doesn't amd I don't ask). Spent the rest of the weekend together as family - him sleeping downstairs.
Monday I go to yoga in the evening and it was about an hour before I had to collect D12 from drama, so I decided to not go home and just have a browse around a supermarket. Collect D12 and went home. As I entered the house I received a string of text messages, all sent individually 'I've just got milk, missing you, kissing you, tempting you, frustrating you, loving you'. Before I read them I said why have you just sent a load of messages and then looked down and read them and I was completely thrown....I reached for his hand (he didn't pull away) and asked what the messages are for? He said he didn't know (the kids were all still around at this point). I sent him a text asking if they were meant for me - he didn't reply! Kids went to bed, nothing was said, we watched TV and normal chat, went to bed (separately).
Yesterday no mention of it, normal chat etc... we went to the twins school parents evening together - all fine, watched tv together. Went to bed separately. I think I have messed up today as I have sent a message saying we need to talk - I have seen that he has read it, but no reply.I won't pursue again.
What do I do now? Forget that he sent these texts? Do I continue how things are (which have been so much better as 3 months ago he couldn't even be in the same room as me). I will continue to GAL but I am struggling to ignore this too and I have 2 nights of not sleeping again. I am looking for words of wisdom if anyone has any?!? Help!
M: 17 T:17 Me:42 H:48 BD 23/12/2017 H says ‘I don’t want to be married’ D 17 D 15, D 13, S 10, S 10
