Before MLC, whenever we slept together it was good for both of us, it just wasn't often enough for her. During MLC though (when we were still intimate which we haven't been now for more than 2 months mainly because i don't allow it under these conditions) it didn't feel "right" as that "passion" or feeling of vulnerability/love that was always present in our earlier relationship was gone. It was like i was a one night stand for her and that is simply something i will not accept! I am her HUSBAND, not some affair or whatever that you can treat like that. So yeah, as you can tell, that incident really turned me off and i kinda vowed to not sleep with her again until we had a sort of actual relationship going again.
Which right now, is looking very unlikely i'm afraid, since most of the time she has no empathy towards me at all... I mean there is a moment here and there where it would seem she is looking through her MLC, but those moments are rare.
Without empathy, there can be no love. It's as simple as that really.
So i now have the choice to stay the course and hope things will improve over time OR i could take the risk and be intimate with her hoping it's gonna change things for the better. If it won't though, i will have lost ALL credibility since once again i won't STICK to a decision i made
It all is really confusing in my mind and i am at a loss here...
