Sarah, you are grieving the loss of your marriage, that sadness is somehow normal, it's painful and I totally get it when you are talking about breaking down in tears, I went through that phase after OW2, I was a wreck. I went to see my GP and he prescribed me AD for just a few months but they helped me to function on a daily basis so I could take care of my kids. So if you think you need them, take them, there is nothing wrong about asking for help, you are going through a very difficult time right now and remember you are human not super human. You need to take care of yourself not only for you but for your kids.
You are right now in a phase of grieving but also in a phase of healing, you are very fragile and you need to recover from the massive earthquake that you went through, so stop pushing yourself to do everything as usual, it's ok to skip/cancel some activities/obligations if they are not vital. Burn out is a real thing, specially for women, just do what is strictly necessary. May be ask him to help you, at least it will give him a taste of what he will have to do if you share custody and if he refuses, take notes of it. Remember you will have to coparent with him for many years to come. May be send him a plan where one day you care for the kids and the next day that's his turn... or something else...
GAL is not easy with 3 kids, so instead of going out to see your friends, they can come to visit you or if you have a good friend, call her/him on a regular basis. And sometimes, Gal could be just doing nothing at home, watching a good movie with a nice ice cream. Also, ask him to take care of the kids
You wrote about a new job closer to your home a few weeks ago, any news about it...
Me 52+ WH 57+ Married 20 + Piecing since 2016 (ready to give up...)
