I do not not how to manage this. If he insists on separate holidays I am sure I can't help but begging for reconciliation. Then we will have an argument, he will be cynical, I will tell how desperate I feel. At the end, he will insist that he wants divorce and I will have to start with LRT from scratch. If I agree with separate holidays I will feel like if I had agreed to separation and divorce. I will lose hope, will feel desperate for days and weeks. I do not know how to handle this topic with him. I neither want to beg for reconciliation nor do I want to agree to separate holidays.
