I concentrated on staying calm, not begging for reconciliation, non-reactive, GAL, friendly, lovingly and so on. Husband relaxed. At the same time, holiday planning urgently needs to be fixed. Husband repeatedly asked how we want to divide the travel time with the kids. He is firm in not wanting to travel with me. I do not understand this. He has moved out of the MBR. Apart from that we share everything together with the kids. Breakfast, lunch, dinner, weekend activities, just as a normal family. We have even just planned a two nights weekend outside our home for easter. Why then is he so firm that he doesn't want to travel with me. I am panicking travelling with the kids without him. I will miss him so much. The kids will miss him. I am panicking being forced to stay at home while he will travel with the kids. I will feel so desperate, so miserable. I want to beg him that we still travel together, at least once this year. You see, I am struggling with detaching and all this if he moves on with separation like now wanting to travel separately. So far I managed to delay my answer to him how we could divide holiday/travel time. I have no plan what and how to answer. Should I simply agree? Maybe it is what he needs. Should I tell him that it is not understandable for the kids? I feel so lost.
