I really hope that someday (and not in super distant future) I can truthfully look in the mirror and say:
Quote:
"I may very well be alone the rest of my life, and I am OK with that."
For now it looks difficult. I think one reason being that as I mentioned earlier, I have opened my heart to wife again when everything is more painful. When I was more in dark (thought that was detaching), life felt easier. I thought: "She does what she does, itīs not your business. She does not report to you, you donīt report to her". That was clear, but cold. It takes time and man to really let go, but in a loving manner.
Also weird thing I noticed: I feel that my wife have become more beautiful and attractive lately. She was photographed for one project and posted the pics to Instagram. When I looked at the pictures, I thought: "Why did she never see her like this when everything was good? Why did I never treated her like a treasure, which I would now if she would only let me?" This feeling makes it even harder to let her go... I would want to go there proudly and say "this is my woman"! Hurts to realize how I had chance more than 10 years, but we almost never hold hands walking etc. Well, what do you know...
Have any of you guys experienced that your wife become sexier and started to blossom when she wants out?
