From an outsiders point of view, you are 100% right in that all you can do is make a life for yourself.
Why are you doubting taking a job that is right for you and moving away, which also seems beneficial to you? What exactly are you afraid of? Writing this out might make you feel better.
I feel like your ex's coversations with you are just meant to confuse you so that you will remain his plan B and nothing more. If you become his plan b, he will not value you. You will not value you.
Keep your pride. So far you are doing great.
If they want to return they will move heaven amd earth to do so. (Thats also the only way piecing would actually work) He is not doing that at all. Hes just feeding you some weird nonsense to confuse you, and alleviate his guilt.
If he does return you need to be in a position where you know you are not taking him back because of fear of the unknown. So embrace your unknowm. Put yourself in a position of strength. (This takes time)
What games do you feel like you are playing? What lies? I dont understand. He left you for someone else. There is no more marriage. You owe him nothing. You owe yourself everything.
Love your self more. You are such a capable person. Of course there will be emotions involved. They will continue to be there for years and years. Just keep focusing on you. Do what is in your best interest. Dont let him keep you down. Remember who he is and what his actions have been. And remind yourself of who you want to be.
How would you advise a daughter, or a sister, or your best friend if they were living your current life?
