I hope to get started on the DR book this weekend and try to wrap my head around these last couple weeks.I’ve come so close to initiating contact with her not to plead or beg but to try and get some answers.This false hope that I have is really kicking my butt
Swagger, one thing I've learned for sure, you won't get any answers from your W, and you probably won't every get your ahead around anything in the past, recent or distant. You just have to look at today, then tomorrow, then the next day.
As far as false hope? I get it, I hold hope as well. But my hope as shifted, as well as my focus. Maybe in time yours will as well. My focus is now on me and my kids, nobody else. My thing that gives me hope is that my H has not made a move toward D. That's it.
GAL, and friends, is difficult, I understand. Especially when you've made your family your entire focus (hindsight is 20/20, right?). My GAL, spending more time on my hobbies (crochet, crafts). Last week I even spent lots of time just window shopping. I was telling my best girlfriend last night about that, she was shocked, I haven't done that in, well, ever! Friends? I'm not making new friends, just cultivating old friendships that I've let slip. I don't know if I want new friends at this point. I'll just let that happen naturally.
You will get through this, the key is to stop trying to analyze her behavior. Hang in there.
Me-44,H-44 S21,S19,S17,D13 M-22,T-29 (off and on prior to M) BD:12-20-17 (H said he had things to work out in his head) H moved out:3-4-18
