Well we had a great time camping, the girls had an awesome time! They even cried when we left so I knew I had done good. Took a lot of pictures and made incredible memories. They are already asking when we can go back.
Then this afternoon my W and signed all the refi papers so the house will officially be mine when the loan is funded on Wed. My W then asked me if I would be willing to go look at a condo with her. It didn’t bother me in the slightest. So together we went and picked up our girls and scouted the place out. She asked me for advice and thoughts on it. At times she was acting like we were buying it together which was funny. It was the first time we were together as a family doing something in quite some time and It was really great to have our girls present. Afterwards I asked her if she wanted to get some dinner and discuss further so we did. Again it was nice to have our girls sitting with us as a family eating. I didn’t read anything else into it and took it as an opportunity for our girls to have some family time with mommy and daddy together interacting positively. I guess some may call it cake eating or enabling her to have the best of both worlds but I feel like I am detached enough and emotionally stable to the point to where it has no impact on me. Honestly I still feel an obligation to look out for her best interests and provide what I can to help. I am secure with where the switch is at, am not looking for anything else and did it because to me it felt like the right thing to do. She offered to pay for her meal but I didn’t accept her money. In my mind we will always be a family even though we are no longer together and as the leader I still have a role to play.
It is a beautiful day here today and my girls are now outside playing with the neighbor kids. That brings a smile to my face and I feel like things are starting to come together. I feel at peace.
