Gordie #18: still not divorced

[Gordie]

Do I get a prize for making it to my 18th thread?

Well, I’m still here and feeling better than I have in a looong time. Still not married nor divorced and I’m okay with that for now.

I gained about 10 pounds of winter weight that I’m working off to get back to my beach body (joke). I bought myself that present. It wasn’t for w or kids or the house. It was just for me and I’m happy with my purchase. I went away for the weekend, just the kids and me and we had a great time. Work is going great.

I’m reading and thinking more about forgiveness and what that means. I am continuing to keep my distance and she has been continuing to warm up to me. She laid her head on my chest one night and snuggled with me for a little while before going to her room. I resisted the temptation to do anything sexual as I didn’t sense any desire other than to be close. I think she may suggest we sleep together again (sleep, not sex). She asked if we can go out on a date and I said yes. I’ll keep it low key, nothing fancy. Also, she said she had a falling out with her pro-divorce single friend.

Just want to say thanks for all of you who have walked this path with me. Looking back, I was a giant, depressed mess when I started posting here. And as you have said, even if I don’t save the M, I’ll have saved myself. Peace.