I am glad to read that you are going to start getting your hair treatments again and are thinking of other things to make yourself feel better. It's time to "make yourself" get out there and do those things that made you feel better about yourself. Yes, you've kind of let things go, but spring is around the corner and you need to do these things for yourself. When you feel good about yourself...others notice and are/will be attracted to you.
Rebook your trip to Fla today. Don't wait another minute. You need something to look forward to and yes, it's time to do this. Can you book a couple mini trips between now and May? I'm sure you have friends that are more than happy to have you come visit within driving distance.
As for your job...keep applying for other positions. Spring brings opportunities for change because people are thinking of relocating after schools close and they want to get relocated before the fall terms begin.
The vent is warranted and now it's time to put your new plans in motion.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
