25years mlc 10 years pass I FILE #9 LAST LAP

[SteveLW]

sidenote

I was looking for a picture of d20 but came upon a short video of xh. In it, I was filming and egging him on in an act out, and he was pretty darn funny. In the video, I was laughing so hard I could not hold the camera still.

True, I missed THAT version of xh. Or that time we had. But it was more of a wistful feeling, and not such a gut punch grief.

No tears, no sick feeling. Not even wondering about him much, though the question of "does he ever miss the laughs, the way I do?" did arise.

I'm funnier than him (not bragging, just saying) and made him laugh a lot. And he did the same for me, and there's no way - really - that he is laughing as much now. Nor am I.

So yes, I still have those moments. But they don't wrack my brain, and I am shrugging it off more.

I have faith that I'll be with a man who laughs hard with me. For now, it's enough to have my friends and family laughing with me.

Thanks 25! Such a great post. One of the thing that gives me the most hope is that my wife and I still laugh together! The other night after a long bout of sex, I started using euphemisms for female masturbation. I had her laughing so hard she had tears in her eyes.

I love laughing with her. And the fact that we still laugh together makes me think we have a good chance to make it to R.