So, some revelations. You can not compromise who you are at the root, you can work on your behaviors, habits, actions, but you have to be true to yourself. Respect the power of who you really are.
I keep making mistakes. But I refuse to let that bring me down or cripple me. I am human. We all are. While I have made mistakes, it is on me to fix myself how I see fit.
Also, this isnt about my feelings. This is about hers. I cant "fix" that. I can only witness and support as best that I can.
Yes, I aired my dirty laundry here. Yes, some of you decided to judge me. I am cool with that and respect that.
Where am I at. The crossroads of uncertainty and that is an exciting place to be.
I welcome change, because it is up to me to welcome and accept it.
Wrote her a long text message today and we spoke briefly. While she was not receptive, I had to say it. It cleared the air on my intentions to stand by her forever...even if she decides our marriage is over. I do not want that but I am man enough to love without want or need.
I came here looking for validation and support. I realized that will only come from within.
Yes, I am flawed. But by God's design, I will grow and learn from this and use this situation to be a better man.
Much love and respect for all of you. Thanks again!
