It's been 2 days now being a single divorced dad and not much has changed, still working on myself as I will see my IC today and continue my time in the gym, strong mind and body is helping me get through this! My sister asked me today if I told my kids or my anyone else and to be honest I completely forgot, the entire divorce process between the XW and I was uneventful, I just wanted out the last few months and not going to a mediator or to court probably had everything to do with that. I basically got an email from my lawyer informing me that I am officially divorced. I should probably sit down with my kids and let them know.
In the end I gave it my all, I was a good husband and father( I will now focus on being a great dad) , I did everything for my kids and my W, unfortunately my XW and I forgot each other in the process. I at least stayed true to my beliefs and did not stray in my marriage, I can rest my head at night with a clear conscious.