My New Scenario

[Newly20]

The idea of there being another has crossed my mind, but there is no way for me to validate this. I would like to know fully what is going on with her, but i am well aware that a WAS will not openly admit to an affair.

I don't plan on trying to court/date her as that's not something she is looking for nor do i think this is beneficial.

At first i tried and pleaded her to rethink this through, that we have a family and that we have so much history together. I have much fault at this, but i can fully take all the blame. From some point on she stopped trying herself.

I do feel like I'm in limbo land. If there was or is an affair there is no way i could go through with R. This is just something i could never forget, thus never forgive.