Quote: Hopefully I'll have something better to report by the end of the weekend...
Still waiting for her blasted allergies to subside - at night she gets the "coughs" pretty bad - kissing isn't all that easy, and I risk getting coughed-at in the face. Seems worth the price, though, and we continue to have nice cuddly-times and increasingly warm kissin' and cuddlin' at bedtime. Still building the emotional connection, even tho sex itself doesn't seem possible just now. This would've been INTENSELY frustrating for me before PM, but I'm just taking it one day at a time, and not taking anything personally. I know she can't control her allergies, and I truly feel sorry for her when I see her suffering. The kissing and cuddling she gives me aren't "crumbs", they're gifts, and I'm receiving them gladly and with great reverence. I feel truly loved by her these days, and it's simply because I'm learning to listen. That love was there before, but I wasn't tapping into it. When her allergies subside, I'm really hoping we can take this emotional connection and use it to really explore our love for one another.
Even though I'm not using frequency as a success measurement anymore, I decided to do a bit of checking just to see where I've been and where I'm at now. I looked back at my old threads, and I was amazed at the difference in how I feel now. I also discovered that whereas W and I ML once between Jan. and Mar., and once in Mar. (early Mar.), in April we had 3 ML experiences in a two-week period, and there's been a LOT of cuddling and cozy times as well... a LOT more than we've had in a LONG time. Progress is definitely happening!!!
