Juju, I have remorse, people make mistakes. As far as STDs, her health, I told her what happened and got tested. I screwed up, but owned it.
My addictions have cost us money. But I am a fantastic provider and never has our financial situation, home, basic needs been jeopardized.
At this point, the light has come on. I am done trying to fix myself or this situation. Now I detach and be the best me I can be.
I appreciate the comments and insight as always. I have let go now of expectations and will focus on the kids and their well being.
I am a good father at the very least and that will be my path for now. I also realized...this is not about me. This about her. Her feelings are ber own. I have no say, I can only witness and stand up for my own self respect, regardless of my mistakes.
